I didn’t know that I was starving till I tasted you.
Don’t need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo.
By the way, right away, you do things to my body
I didn’t know that I was starving till I tasted you.
I met this boy only two weeks ago. It was only two days ago that we had gotten to know each other really well. In a way, it felt like we’ve known each other for awhile. And then, on Friday night (yesterday), we went on a Friday night adventure that somehow turned into something like a date.
From the moment I met him, something about him kept telling me “he’s perfect. he’s the perfect guy.” And then add on newer details about him when we get to know each other and he turns out to be more perfect. And no, I don’t mean perfect by perfect looks or the qualities on my checklist even though he does check off the “European” part. It’s the fact that he does everything that I want to do but am afraid of doing. He’s more on the adventurous, living-on-the-edge, wild crazy guy who is somewhat down-to-earth. He asked me why I gave up on some things and why I don’t return to it if I love it so much. He takes me out of my comfort zone which is what I really need in my current phase of life.
Just like a first kiss, a girl’s first time is always special because her virginity is her most prized possession (or at least that’s what girls are taught while growing up). That is what I always kept in the back of my mind. But last night, a little devil overpowered the angel and I gave myself to him. It was still quite magical and the entire process from the very beginning to morning sex was just like in the movies but messier, of course. How he looks at me, whispers in my ear, kisses my forehead and neck…those are his charming ways to get me into the other side.
Now you’re probably wondering “if everything is so magical, what is the problem?” The problem is that I don’t want my first time to be in the same category as my first kiss. My first kiss was a nightmare that still haunts me. I shouldn’t be immature about it but I don’t want to lose the guy from my first time…or at least the relationship with him. But did I just show him that I’m too easy? I shouldn’t have given it to him that easily. Looking back, I made a mistake but at the same time, I was just going with the flow and following my intuition. Also, we have a mutual friend so everything will be dramatic.
I was enchanted to meet you.
Please don’t be in love with someone else.
I just need to remember my life before he fully entered it.
Hiraeth 