Dating – Hiraeth

Uncharted territory

What does it mean by “taking it slow” during dating? Looking back at my dating history, I realized all my affairs and relationships developed very quickly. When I was younger, I was only into casual hookups because I knew I wasn’t in the place to develop feelings. I recently broke off a 5 year longContinue reading “Uncharted territory”

Finding the trigger

Anxiety (n.) a strong desire sometimes mixed with doubt, fear, or uneasiness 9 years. It was 9 years ago that I met him in Hong Kong on Halloween at 3am in Lan Kwai Fong. It’s been 7 years since I said no to being with him. I was 27 years old. I should’ve known better,Continue reading “Finding the trigger”

To the boy who made me believe love still exists in my story

PS. I still love you. Since my parents are visiting LA due to the pandemic, we have to see each other less than usual…but that’s okay. We text each other throughout day. We talk on the phone every night for a long time before going to bed and we know we’re always with each other.Continue reading “To the boy who made me believe love still exists in my story”

The way he looked at her

“Listen with you heart. You will understand.” -Grandmother Willow from Pocahontas. How many people actually believe in love at first sight? Can a person really fall in love with someone just by one glance? In ‘One Day in December’ by Josie Silver, the lead girl and her best friend try to answer a few questionsContinue reading “The way he looked at her”

To the boy who keeps the light on

Some relationships feel like a wildfire-they’re powerful and compelling and majestic and dangerous and have the capability to burn you before you even realize you’ve been consumed…..some relationships feel like a hearth fire-they’re solid and stable and cozy and nourishing The Light We Lost by Jill Santopolo October 14, 2018 was the first time weContinue reading “To the boy who keeps the light on”

To the boy who came out of thin air.

Just be careful. Promise me no promises. Let’s flashback to Halloween 2015. 2015 was the year I had my HKIA exams which meant I spent most of my months studying up until the exams in November. I told myself I wasn’t going to go out for Halloween and focus on my exams, but eventually, oneContinue reading “To the boy who came out of thin air.”

To the boy who walked away without a word.

I overdosed. Should’ve known your love was a game. Now I can’t get you out of my brain. Oh, it’s such a shame. April 28. The night when the fire started and when the game began. While you are off working on your successful projects and preparing your return to school (which I am reallyContinue reading “To the boy who walked away without a word.”

I’m not afraid anymore.

This ain’t the right time for you to fall in love with me Baby I’m just being honest And I know my lies could not make you believe We’re running in circles that’s why. Each time, I told myself I would not cry over a guy. For the first time, whatever happened between me andContinue reading “I’m not afraid anymore.”

What I gave you is yours to keep.

I didn’t know that I was starving till I tasted you. Don’t need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo. By the way, right away, you do things to my body I didn’t know that I was starving till I tasted you. I met this boy only two weeks ago. It wasContinue reading “What I gave you is yours to keep.”

To the boy who I was afraid to commit to.

I told myself I wasn’t going to fall for you because we come from different worlds, but I somehow can’t stop thinking about you. Five years ago, you entered my life through my best friends and we started talking. At that time, I only saw you as a friend and didn’t think anything would happen.Continue reading “To the boy who I was afraid to commit to.”